December 31, 2008

Chutti Time!!

Winters are such a delight for me. I am typically fond of those foggy mornings, with a cuppa of tea in hand, overloaded wih clothes, sleeping till late in the cosy quilt, eating all kind of paranthas, gajar ka halwa, gajak... Oh much I miss North India this time of the year. Yeah I know you gain weight..but then how does it is summer to sweat out all the fat!!!

Other than this I have more to celebrate...25th December is my sister's we always celebrate it with full enthu.. And the most special thing this time is my office is closed for 5 days!!! We had canceled our previous holidays due to loads of work and finally declared them during this week... WOOOWWWW!!!!

Some of our friend's are coming over to celebrate new year...infact it will celebrated this time with shopping. Actually, one of my best fren is getting married so she will coming over on weekend to do her shopping I know this is good for me but bad for Andy..But never mind to make him happy I have already cooked gajar ka halwa and some other delicacies for him. I am sure he wouldn't mind enjoying them on stake of his wallet. :)))

So a very very Happy New Year to you... May the new year bring all your wishes true!!!

See you all soon with detailed description of my vacations!!

December 22, 2008

Life is not so Simple!!!

Back in 2004, I was completely unaware of the aim of my life after completing my engineering. All my batchmates used to search on various job portals, keep editing their resumes, planned of going to Bangalore after college ended, for job search. Me and S would always be found chilling around in café deciding where to meet and have party after college. Another close friend of ours, B, would always be so worried. She scolded us for we had not still made our CV’s, but she knew she will be the one making for us. Finally, one day there was a storm in campus. Everyone was in hurried expression that our TPO is doing nothing. LnT was coming to a college in Jaipur and he was not even bothered to take us there. You won’t believe but sincerely speaking I didn’t know any company except Infosys. LnT was a strange word for me.

The next day we were in bus with 200 other girls on a trip to Jaipur. For me it was a trip since my parents were in Jaipur, so I could meet them. But lots of people were reading and revising lots of C codes and functions. We were going for LnT interviews. We went to a private college in there. I just knew Akash and one more friend in the college. Once we reached there I got busy meeting all friends of Akash. I didn’t even know where my resume was. Afterall, who had come for an interview ;) . It was just a get together of friends. We got to know that there would be a written test in evening and next day the personal interview. That meant whole day I was free. Bas phir kya tha…. I was with Akash and group looking for a prospective girlfriend for the guys (Ours was a girls college). I had amazing fun … Finally in the evening test started. Me, S and B sat together. Paper was simple maths and analytics (I love Maths). All three of us had absolute same answers. Finally after half an hour I got to know that we three are shortlisted. OMG….. I was elated. This was least expected. Next day it was technical round. And I knew I couldn’t do that. I hadn’t done any coding before. Full night B helped me to remember lots of basics and gave me fundas. But finally I failed in technical round.

After this whole thing, I realized that yeah Job is something I need to worry about. But I never wanted to go into engineering field. Then why the hell did I waste four years of my life. L After few days I was placed. And luckily, I didn’t have coding profile but testing. Work was fun in Gurgaon.With me were few of my college frenz including Richa. I was enjoying every bit of it, except my work. I mean I did like the work, but somehow deep inside me, I felt this is not what I want to be. I need to do something creative or I should get a place where I could lead people. I was all lost.

One day suddenly I got engaged. I was happy, of course since I got my life partner, but the better reason was that now I can actually look for better job. Andy helped me a lot. I resigned from Gurgaon and got settled in Mumbai. I started looking for something in Mumbai, but everyone offered me a software engineer profile. I never wanted that. Infact I wanted to join some editorial firm or newspaper. Then Andy suggested me to join a startup. He explained to me that it would be a best thing since the company has just 4 people and I can grow and learn a lot in there.

And there I am from past 1 year. Initially, I faced a lot of problem, but got adjusted to a fact that I have to be an initiator here. I love the fact in one year I have learned so much that even a management school can’t teach me in a two year course. I have to do all random work. My profile changes every day.

Last week I took interviews at IIT. My papa was so happy. He said so what you were not an IITian, but you hiring them. My brother who is in IIT was laughing at me. The best feeling was when I heard a group of people saying the written paper was so tough… HAHAHHA….I was GRINNING…. These students found my paper tough!!!!! Whole evening I was carrying a big smile on my face…..: ))))

I asked people about their life goals and found people who were just like me. They wanted to do something, but when asked what…then they didn’t have any answer. People take it as a negative thing, but I feel that it’s never too late to decide what do you want out of life. Everyone is meant to be best at something.

All the best to all my readers for their future lifes, hope you come out of flying colors.

December 13, 2008

Ek la chalo re...

Yesterday night, I felt lonely. For the first time after coming to Mumbai, I felt so aloof and alone. I am one of those people who rarely do anything all alone. Even if I have to go to buy grocery I would ask my neighbors to come with me or will drag Anand. I was at my dance class yesterday and a sudden creepy feeling came in. It told me that this is a land of strangers, I don't belong here. I felt, all people around me were behaving weirdly. After shifting to this new place, my previous neighbors did remind me that I will always miss the gang of those bachelor boys around me. After six months, I realized that yeah I do miss them. Its not that I am not happy here, but I met some strange people around me. Those were selfish people living in their own world of dreams. They were rude and arrogant. Many a times, I wanted to shout on them for I had started hating them, but something in me stopped me. One fine day, I gave up. It was enough. I wanted her to say sorry to me. She left from Mumbai recently. I am happy, but thoughts surround me that why did it all happen. It shouldn’t have happen.

I thought, that may be in Mumbai people are this way only. From then on I started fighting with myself. I started going alone. I started my morning exercise, reminding myself that these things will help me gain my lost confidence. I started doing all things on my own, saying to myself “See you don’t need anyone. You are best.”

I don’t know what happened yesterday at the class. People were talking to me, but I felt that the warmth was missing. I felt left alone. But this was the way I had chosen. Then why wasn’t I happy?

This is not me. I am changing. But should I change?

I know all this is so confusing. So many ifs and buts. I just wrote what was popping in my head with no correlation in things.

That one incidence had broken me. Something inside me wants to come out. I want to make friends, talk to strangers as I did previously. I want to be called the chatter box by everyone.

I want to do all those stupid things, calling people at middle of night just to laugh on them. I want to irritate those call centre guys by putting out of world questions on them. I want to be regular in my office and personal work. I want to be carefree of what people are thinking about me.

Very soon, I guess I will be back to MYSELF.