July 10, 2008
Because I love my life...
Life is so helpless many times. You regret why some people entered in your life, only to ruin it. Why did they behave so mysteriously with you? What made best of frenz to get trapped into a pool of misunderstandings. Some people are so important in your life that even their presence makes you comfortable, but they never realize it. They never know how much they matter to you; instead they come to their own conclusions about anything, ruining the complete relationship. I wish I could go back and ask God to give me those moments back which I had wasted on such insensitive people. I have realized that there are so many people around me whom I really love, but they never cared to even call me and ask about me. But I never felt bad about it. May be I thought they are busy, or they are just lazy to call anybody. Today I regret all these thoughts, they were busy, lazy but not for all but only for me. They just didn’t want to talk to me. At least, one of them confessed this to me and may be others might also do in near future. Or maybe, they will never confess since they are so insensitive to ever care for me.
I promise to myself, from now onwards, I would use my cell only to return back the calls and not to be the first one to approach them.
But irony of my life, this is not me. I can’t be like this for ever. May be I will behave this way only for few months and will return back to original me. And again, one day will be hurt. But I still love my life.
“I love my past. I love my present. I'm not ashamed of what I've had, and I'm not sad because I have it no longer” (Read it somewhere).